I found my way out of the dark abyss I was in and I never want to see me or anyone else get to that place or worse.
I have found a number of things that have heled me turn around and get moving on a path to a life a love and enjoy waking up to each day!
I now share what I have used to help me, with others, to help others
A little history, I had two failed marriages, I was a wanna be stay at home mom that now felt I had to work outside the home to make ends meet, having a special needs child, I believed I needed to be home for, and my now hubby, had and still has, off the charts chronic pain and a brain injury that resulted in short term memory loss from an accident from almost 20 years ago. I felt I had to constantly be a broken record, repeating everything I said either to my daughter or my hubby.
Add this to my negative mindset and it was not a fun place.
Then one day in my kitchen, an interesting thing happened, I dropped something and made a mess on the floor. One of my children came in and said "you're a bad mom!" On any other day, this wouldn't have phased me but this was from a child who normally never said anything like that and it made me do a double take and really think about it. "was I a bad mom?" I only ever wanted to be the best mom I could be. I grew up just wanting to be a" mom", so after a brief moment, I responded with " I'm not a bad mom because I spilled something." "I'm a great mom, I care about your well being, I teach you right from wrong, and I love you, that makes me a great mom"
Little did I know that those words would be a key to changing something in me that set me on the path to getting out of my negativity and my deep dark abyss.